26.4.10

Causalidad

Me gusta creer que todo es parte de una causa mayor, destino si le quieren llamar, moira de acuerdo a Morris. También estoy consciente que esta es la vía más fácil para evadir cualquier responsabilidad:

-Tss hoy no iré a trabajar porque el destino me lo impide

-No ps se me quedé sin gasolina por el destino, no por pendejo

Además eso nos limitaría a seguir un guión, exentos de un libre albedrío (junto con la angustia que pudiera provocar) y pues no suena bien. Cada quien toma las decisiones con sus respectivas consecuencias (te drogas, te fríes el cerebro).

Pero en el fondo creo que existen momentos en que no hay explicación atribuible a un sólo factor racional.

Por eso cuando leí Deutsches Requiem de Borges me pasmé. Es de las pocas frases que recuerdo que me gustan; aunque no la sé de memoria.
"Así, toda negligencia es deliberada, todo casual encuentro una cita, toda humillación una penitencia, todo fracaso una misteriosa victoria, toda muerte un suicidio. No hay consuelo más hábil que el pensamiento de que hemos elegido nuestras desdichas; esa teleología individual nos revela un orden secreto y prodigiosamente nos confunde con la divinidad."



Es como esos encuentros entre la Maga y Oliveira.

Con té.

Y eso me hace feliz.

13.4.10

Carta para Hermoine

La canción más triste que podrían dedicar y por lo mismo deseo que nunca se identifiquen con su letra.



The hand that wrote this letter
Sweeps the pillow clean
So rest your head and
read a treasured dream
I care for no one else but you
I tear my soul to cease the pain
I think maybe you feel the same
What can we do?
I'm not quite sure what we're supposed to do
So I've been writing just for you

They say your life is going very well
They say you sparkle like a different girl
But something tells me that you hide
When all the world is warm and tired
You cry a little in the dark
Well so do I
I'm not quite sure
what you're supposed to say
But I can see it's not okay

He makes you laugh
He brings you out in style
He treats you well
And makes you up real fine
And when he's strong
He's strong for you
And when you kiss
It's something new
But did you ever call my name
Just by mistake?
I'm not quite sure what I'm supposed to do
So I'll just write some love to you

12.4.10

ii. desamorts

Ahora las de despecho.

But I just want to let you know I don't
Love you anymore
I am done with you
I'm sailing my own

Will you put my heart at ease
Will you do it for me please
Siento que quiero olvidar lo que no siempre puedo pensar
Voy arrastrando diez mil sonrisas y no suspiro ni diez memorias

I'll be seeing you again
I'll be seeing you in Hell

I'm having fun don't put me down,
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet

This is the last time I'll say
that I ever loved you

Love love love all the nights we're spending
Love love love don't live here anymore
Locked up inside of your loops then he'd know full well,
That all he had to say was goodbye.

even though it was me
who drove us right in the ground

You killed my heart just to see if, I will rise
Above your anger and above your lies

And we're changing our ways,
taking different roads

I can't believe once you and me did sex
It makes me sick to think of you undressed
Oh, then some skinny bitch walks by in some hot pants
And he's a-running out the door

These bandages cover more than scrapes, cuts and bruises from regrets and mistakes
But life's no storybook
Love's an excuse to get hurt
Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know

Shout Out Louds - Tonight I Have To Leave It
So I heard it's no good to run,
but it feels so much better now that it's done

Peter, Björn and John - Call It Off
but I don't wanna know why we couldn't do more
some thing are not better to leave unexplored
Its you
I haven't figured out, its true
Why the fuck would you want me back?!

Got a bullet left, but I can't decide
Which scorpion I'm going to shoot

Pulp - Bad Cover Version



11.4.10

i. desamort

Uno debe tener un playlist preparado para cualquier ocasión, cuando estás enojado, alegre, drogado, borracho y con ganas de bailar, para la seducción y enamorar.

A petición de un amable lector ahora les enlisto algunas de las efectivas para el despecho, mismas que están divididas en dos partes.

Primero las de dolor puro y del que saboreaba José José... y no, más bien es el dolor cursi indie para cortarse las venas con un bagel (~mmmm baaagel~). Aunque otras sí son para escucharse con precaución.

Moldy Peaches - Nothing Came Out

"I tried to ask you to your face
But no words came out"

Elliott Smith - Everything Reminds Me of Her


"I never really had a problem because of leaving
But everything reminds me of her this evening"

Noah and the Whale - My Broken Heart

"I thought I believed in love but I've never seen it through
Oh I didn't marry the girl I loved"

Jose Gonzalez - Hand On Your Heart

"And if you don't intend to see it through
why did we ever start?"

Stars - Your Ex - Lover Is Dead

"Nothing but time and a face that you'll lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose"

The Coral - Dreaming Of You

"I still need you but I don't want you now"

Asobi Seksu- Thursday

"All I see here is you
All it does is remind me"

She and Him - Black Hole

"But I'm stuck here getting misty over you
I'm alone on a bicycle for two"

The Scotland Yard Gospel Choir- I pretend she's you

"I guess I got my hands full, keeping myself together,
still i think of you ten times a day"

Blur – No Distance Left To Run

"Please turn your back and walk away
I don't want to see you"

Arcade Fire - Crown of Love

"If you still want me, please forgive me,
because the spark is not within me"

Portishead - Wandering Star

"And the time that I will suffer less
Is when I never have to wake"

The Field Mice- Sensitive

"My feelings are hurt so easily
that is the price that I I pay"

Sonic Youth - Superstar (cover)

"Loneliness, is such a sad affair
and I can hardly wait"

Gigi - The Hundredth Time

"But I know I'm crazy for even trying"

Arctic Monkeys - Do Me A Favour

"And the eyes were all red
You could see that we'd cried"

Glasvegas - It's My Own Cheating Heart That Makes Me Cry

"So this is the grand finale
the crescendo of demise"

Erlend Oye - A Sudden Rush

"Why did you come at all,
if it wasn't for me?"

Camera Obscura - Forests and Sands

"But if the blood pumping through my veins could freeze
like a river in Toronto then I'd be pleased"

Badly Drawn Boy - Nothing's Gonna Change Your Mind

"But nothing's gonna change your mind
and no one's gonna help you now"

Yeah, Yeah, Yeahs - Maps

"They don't love you like I love you"

Russian Red- No Past Land

"If you'd like, keep perceiving what lies on my back
and your eyes will shine through the glass of my wine"

Belle and Sebastien - I'm Waking Up To Us

"She was the one love of my life, and i let her go"

Sean Lennon - Falling Out Of Love

"It's all falling apart"

Fiona Apple - Paper Dove

"And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope"


*Actualización*

Un buen apunte de Rion:

Beck - Lost Cause

"I'm tired of fighting"

Gusto culposo


En mi iTunes procuro tener música decente. No encontrarán a Luis Miguel, Lady Gaga, Timbiriche o Gloria Trevi. Aunque confieso que en bodas y en otras fiestas las cantó; son divertidas, pero no para tenerlas en mi compu.

Pero sí tengo un gusto culposo que se distancia de lo que normalmente escucho: Niña. Este grupos forman parte de una corriente medio rock-pop, que se balancea más al pop y sí me late mucho.


Me gustan porque son de letras sencillas, melodías fáciles de escuchar y me ponen de buen humor. No hay más explicación. Pero tampoco es tan grave como para ocultarlo. Sí son muy cursis, es para chavitas de secun, pero son simpáticos.

¿Que perdí cierta credibilidad musical?

Es probable. Pero todos tenemos estos gustos que disfrutamos con los audífonos puestos, sólos y a discreción. Algunos negamos cualquier relación, aunque el last.fm nos puede delatar. Otros aceptamos que son malos, pero no quita el gusto por cantarlo en voz alta... aunque eso moleste y ofenda a más de uno.



Otros temas que me gustan demasiado incluyen "Chubaca Tiene Un Secreto", "Sistema Perfecto" y "Godzilla".

Ah y las portadas de sus discos dejan mucho que desear. Esa del Laredo Love, híjole, mal mal mal.